03/16/04
No updates this time, just will say that everything is the SAME. I am not taking any more SSRI's and trying my best not to take clonazepam. Little progress has happened to this but notheless it still is small progress.
I am at work right now, and as I have mentioned before, the cold sensations are here sitting with me. My legs feel ice cold and let me remind every1 that my back and left leg still hurt like hell and I am STILL taking tylennol too many times a day just to get by and be able to work.
What else Can I say? I am still stick, still thinking negatively and still in a bad place. I am trying though to work things out, but nothing is going right. I gained weight and my whole body is in stretch marks. Can you imagine that?? 20lbs, that's all it took to give me all kinds of red lines on my stomach, love handles, armpits and thighs. NASTYYYY.
Yesturday was a terrible painfull day. At about 3:00pm I just started feeling bad. Everything hurt arms, legs, body, head, and anything else you can mention. I am not being descriptive only because it all felt so strange and painfull that I cannot explain the feeling. So what did I have to do by 9:00 pm, I mean I couldn't handle it anymore, I took a klonapin (clonazepam) and then a hour later Lunesta and passed the fuck out. Today is pretty much the same story except I am all cold and its just getting worse as the day goes by.
Let me tell you about the headaches. I have had a headache this entire week non stopp pretty much. Fuck it I can't even write anymore I am depressing myself soo much, that I just can't do it. Wish you all luck, but no one reads this crap anyway. I will survive, and I will beat this crap. No matter what the hell it is I will win eventually. Even if it takes years.
Chao.
I am at work right now, and as I have mentioned before, the cold sensations are here sitting with me. My legs feel ice cold and let me remind every1 that my back and left leg still hurt like hell and I am STILL taking tylennol too many times a day just to get by and be able to work.
What else Can I say? I am still stick, still thinking negatively and still in a bad place. I am trying though to work things out, but nothing is going right. I gained weight and my whole body is in stretch marks. Can you imagine that?? 20lbs, that's all it took to give me all kinds of red lines on my stomach, love handles, armpits and thighs. NASTYYYY.
Yesturday was a terrible painfull day. At about 3:00pm I just started feeling bad. Everything hurt arms, legs, body, head, and anything else you can mention. I am not being descriptive only because it all felt so strange and painfull that I cannot explain the feeling. So what did I have to do by 9:00 pm, I mean I couldn't handle it anymore, I took a klonapin (clonazepam) and then a hour later Lunesta and passed the fuck out. Today is pretty much the same story except I am all cold and its just getting worse as the day goes by.
Let me tell you about the headaches. I have had a headache this entire week non stopp pretty much. Fuck it I can't even write anymore I am depressing myself soo much, that I just can't do it. Wish you all luck, but no one reads this crap anyway. I will survive, and I will beat this crap. No matter what the hell it is I will win eventually. Even if it takes years.
Chao.
posted by Steve at 10:27 AM
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