And so on the search goes.
Today is Monday the 13th of February, and I just wanted to update/recap on some things that have happened this past week. As of today It has been exactly three weeks since I have taken Paxil. Maybe I am still having withdrawal but I started feeling worse after the first two weeks, so from what I know the worse of Paxil withdrawal is during the first two weeks so once again I am without any answers, and with much confusion.
This week starting the previous monday I started feeling all kind of cold scary sensations in my body. Different body parts would go cold and stay that way for a while then they would pass, however I was able to finally sleep without taking Lunesta (sleeping aid) at least 85% of the time which is a great improvement from 100% of the time. Lets just say this has been the longest week of my life, but I don't want to talk about the entire week, just yesturday, Sunday the 12th.
The day was going fine from the beginning a had much plans and had enough to think about yet the cold sensations still started coming and disturbing me. I mean its not just simple cold sensation there is more to it, that makes you feel like something terrible is wrong, but I just can't find words to it. The day went on.... In the evening I decided to watch my favorite show "24" which I have on DVD. This usually takes my mind off of many topics and I get really into it, as I did this time. While eating and laying there watching, all of a sudden I felt this unpleasant feeling my my heart area and it came pretty fast. Once I noticed it and said "wtf" is this, a wave of cold/weird feeling ran through my body, pretty much from my afdoment up to my head. After that my heart was beating very rapidly (over 100 bpm) for a while. I tried taking a shower, talking to my gf, but this did not really help. It was really unpleasant and it really was more to it all that I am expressing. I wanted to call 911 but did not. It got late and I late down to sleep, and started having these really really vivid dreams. Like I was not totally asleep but I was not awake either. I can't say I was having a nightmare but things were wrong. I was trying to open a door in the dark that I always been able to open and for some reason I could not find the lock, there were cats and dogs in my house and they were all fighting for some reason, other than the lil pussy one's hiding in my room. I was trying to get to my room mate but no matter what I tried I could not get to him. At this point I remember thinking and realizing that this is really not my room and that the door that I can't open is in the wrong place. I realized I was dreaming and opened my eyes. Blinked them a couple of times relaxed and closed them again to go to sleep. As soon as I closed them it went all and started continuing, weird vidid thoughts/dreams and were really real and would not go away. I had to resort to Lunesta because I had to get sleep or I would be late for work.
How do I find out what is wrong with me??
Please someone, I don't know how much longer I can fight this battle of symptoms. They refuse to go away no matter what I do.
This week starting the previous monday I started feeling all kind of cold scary sensations in my body. Different body parts would go cold and stay that way for a while then they would pass, however I was able to finally sleep without taking Lunesta (sleeping aid) at least 85% of the time which is a great improvement from 100% of the time. Lets just say this has been the longest week of my life, but I don't want to talk about the entire week, just yesturday, Sunday the 12th.
The day was going fine from the beginning a had much plans and had enough to think about yet the cold sensations still started coming and disturbing me. I mean its not just simple cold sensation there is more to it, that makes you feel like something terrible is wrong, but I just can't find words to it. The day went on.... In the evening I decided to watch my favorite show "24" which I have on DVD. This usually takes my mind off of many topics and I get really into it, as I did this time. While eating and laying there watching, all of a sudden I felt this unpleasant feeling my my heart area and it came pretty fast. Once I noticed it and said "wtf" is this, a wave of cold/weird feeling ran through my body, pretty much from my afdoment up to my head. After that my heart was beating very rapidly (over 100 bpm) for a while. I tried taking a shower, talking to my gf, but this did not really help. It was really unpleasant and it really was more to it all that I am expressing. I wanted to call 911 but did not. It got late and I late down to sleep, and started having these really really vivid dreams. Like I was not totally asleep but I was not awake either. I can't say I was having a nightmare but things were wrong. I was trying to open a door in the dark that I always been able to open and for some reason I could not find the lock, there were cats and dogs in my house and they were all fighting for some reason, other than the lil pussy one's hiding in my room. I was trying to get to my room mate but no matter what I tried I could not get to him. At this point I remember thinking and realizing that this is really not my room and that the door that I can't open is in the wrong place. I realized I was dreaming and opened my eyes. Blinked them a couple of times relaxed and closed them again to go to sleep. As soon as I closed them it went all and started continuing, weird vidid thoughts/dreams and were really real and would not go away. I had to resort to Lunesta because I had to get sleep or I would be late for work.
How do I find out what is wrong with me??
Please someone, I don't know how much longer I can fight this battle of symptoms. They refuse to go away no matter what I do.
posted by Steve at 5:20 AM
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