1/06/06 Cont.

Few hourse past and now I just feel plain old sick. I feel like I am sick with some virus or something. I have had this before since all this anxiety started, and people say that anxiety can make you feel anything including feeling sick. Blood tests do not show anything as usual. It is so intense and debilitating that I just cannot bear it much longer. I took .5mg of Clonazepam and it did not do anything to make me feel better. WHY????? It supposed to relax you and if I am stressed and feeling this way it should have helped. I feel like im dying again. WTF, everything is going good in my life. Really I know it, so what is going on with me behind the scenes. It will be such a fuking shame that if some time from now they will finally find what's wrong with me and it will be too late. All I will be able to say is I TOLD YOU SO. I have almost never for a split second believed that I had anything mental. I don't. My body is telling me I am sick but stupid doctors cant find it. I don't even know what tests to do anymore. Fuck yall... stay tuned.