New Day Life Continues

As per the previous blogg post. I went to my psychiatrist yesturday and told him I want to get off my medicine. He said okay, and told me to take half (10mg Paxil) for two weeks and then a quarter for two more weeks, then come and see him after I am off. So this is day two so far so good. I drank yesturday and today didn't wake up feeling all electric like I usually do the next day after drinking. Who knows maybe it was the Paxil, but I doubt it. I seriously doubt it. My psychiatrist also explained to me that I have a autonomic nervous system imbalance. That plus my negative thinking is the problem. The autonomic nervous system has two parts. Sympathetic and Parasympathetic which balance each other. Well I have an imbalance of the two systems and things like nicotene, coffeine, and alcohol screw the impalance up even more. Unfortunately for me all three of these things are a part of my daily life, except the alcohol, but I do drink more that a regular person for several reasons. I am 23 and this is what people my age do in NYC. We go out to a lounge, bar, or club have drinks and enjoy ourselves. My problem is I have a high tolerance or rather I built one up over the years. I am also Russian and it is in my blood to handle vodka very well. I can easily have 10 shots and still be able to drive. Not something to be proud of I know. And to the elderly and mature and read this and think oh gosh this kid what is he doing. Let me respond. First of all YOU were young too, and you did stupid things also when you were young. Later you got older and realized how stupid it all was. Well I am young and at that point where I just want to live and enjoy my youth as much as possible.

Moving on. It is only morning but I am feeling ok. So far no withdrawal but like I said this is day two. (12/27/05) I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a Happy Hanukah. Im not very religious so I don't celebrate either one but I know how much fun each can be. I'll leave at this point. Wish me a good day. I will be leaving tomorrow for a few days in the mountains to relax so I'll be back in about a week.