1/06/06
Ok so it is friday. I am still a first line superviser. Good stuff good stuff.
So im sitting there and all of a sudden I feel like a tickling/crackling feeling/sound coming from the base of my skull. Where the skull connects to your spine. In the back. Wtf is this? This is not the first time it happened but this time it lasted for a while and was lounder than usual. What else do I feel? If i close my eyes and try to block all the outside noise out, I feel a warmth in my chest, as well as a feeling that breathing is not comfortable. My hands are trembly but so is the rest of my body. My stomach hurts because of my gastritis. Feel weakness in my whole body. Yesturday and a bit today I kind of felt out of it. It felt like my nerves were a bit shattered and that something is just wrong with me. I can't explain this feeling, it is so bizare.
I decided that I have to break this down into a few goals and I will try my best to keep them.
1) I need to get to a conclusion with my back/leg pain so that I can go to the gym.
2) I will try to quit smoking. I dont' know how that will go. I know I want to but yet I wish I didn't have to.
There are a lot of more goals but I need to get these two out of the way first. I am almost done with cutting my Paxil dose to 10mg for two weeks. Monday I will start taking 5mg for two weeks and then stop. I hope that most of the things I feel are just from this drug. Then again I felt most of this before I started taking it also, so I just do not know.
Life is not bad but I just can't be happy right now. I should be. I think I finally met a girl that can really affect me. I don't know exactly how I feel about her but we are seeing each other and that's good. She unintentionally will try to change me and I already see that. The good thing is that it will be for the better, the bad thing is that I do not listen to anyone except myself.
Karoche vremya pokazhet.
Bye for now.
So im sitting there and all of a sudden I feel like a tickling/crackling feeling/sound coming from the base of my skull. Where the skull connects to your spine. In the back. Wtf is this? This is not the first time it happened but this time it lasted for a while and was lounder than usual. What else do I feel? If i close my eyes and try to block all the outside noise out, I feel a warmth in my chest, as well as a feeling that breathing is not comfortable. My hands are trembly but so is the rest of my body. My stomach hurts because of my gastritis. Feel weakness in my whole body. Yesturday and a bit today I kind of felt out of it. It felt like my nerves were a bit shattered and that something is just wrong with me. I can't explain this feeling, it is so bizare.
I decided that I have to break this down into a few goals and I will try my best to keep them.
1) I need to get to a conclusion with my back/leg pain so that I can go to the gym.
2) I will try to quit smoking. I dont' know how that will go. I know I want to but yet I wish I didn't have to.
There are a lot of more goals but I need to get these two out of the way first. I am almost done with cutting my Paxil dose to 10mg for two weeks. Monday I will start taking 5mg for two weeks and then stop. I hope that most of the things I feel are just from this drug. Then again I felt most of this before I started taking it also, so I just do not know.
Life is not bad but I just can't be happy right now. I should be. I think I finally met a girl that can really affect me. I don't know exactly how I feel about her but we are seeing each other and that's good. She unintentionally will try to change me and I already see that. The good thing is that it will be for the better, the bad thing is that I do not listen to anyone except myself.
Karoche vremya pokazhet.
Bye for now.
posted by Steve at 5:50 AM
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